DAMN. the first half of summer is almost over. his 3 week stay was really too short for me, and it just left me craving for more. i MISS him.

as i finally got home from our escapade, i laid on the bed and covered my face with a pillow, then i started crying. i realized i was REALLY gonna miss him once he leaves. damn, i still miss him even when we're together. even a night without him really tears me apart. sooo not the DRAMA. i really go jelly and cheezy when it's about him. i guess this is what they call REAL love, not just a simple, childish infatuation.

when i think about him, i can't stop wishing that things were different. that i'm old enough to marry without parents' consent, that i'm done with my studies so i could run off with him, that he doesn't have to leave again..

and that that darn pregnancy test show two lines.

uhhh, i guess i really meant the last one. haha. when we were talking about that in the past, i was SURE or at least i thought i was that i don't want one. but darn, i know now that i do. i really do. i won't have it with another man. it has to be HIM.

damn. i'm starting to cry again. we'll meeting up later, but it's gonna be a short one.

*sigh*

lighten up.


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